A code word known to everyone in the house can work similarly to a fire alarm. Is my approach to recovery correct? It would be a constant battle in my head like kill yourself or kill them and it would be a response of no or ok but when I did say ok I would t act on it I would just ignore it. Fear of emotions, such as anger, that may trigger harm OCD obsessions (see my post on. He has hurt my mom and I before. I have been dealing with anxiety and intrusive thoughts for the past three or four months. First is that it is common. The community for discussion of phobias and ways to treat them. End of story. Ive owned firearms for 25 years and became horrified that if that guy from Ft. My Dad, who I love dearly, would sometimes practice shooting at our range, and sometimes I get the image of shooting him in the back as hes going to change the target. Generalized Anxiety Disorder message board, open discussion, and online support group. It may not be easy, but accepting doubt and uncertainty even doubt and uncertainty brought on by some random blog post is key to overcoming OCD. It was only a year back that I realised this is OCD and the condition I had set myself is actually a compulsion. I feel like I can relate to someone now. I hate this feeling so bad and I feel so guilty I dont wanna go through the day. Im afraid of what they will say. I start to choke or punch him to hard. Ive been to see a therapist and Im on paroxetine but the only official diagnosis I have is general anxiety disorder. And just like you, many of the people I see also struggle with, What if this isnt really OCD? I have these thoughts, and not just randomly killing someone. Hi am 16 and terrified all hurt some I have suffered with this thoughts since 12 one day my little cousin was sleeping when I went over to him I thought what if I strangled him i started to cry I cried for weeks then the thoughts moved on to knife s I dont even hold a knife in my hand now couple of days ago I went to my friends house he was watching a film about this guy who mmurderd then raped woman I was really scared that knight walking home all I could think about was what if i turned in to that person am my safe around my family and now I ask my self whod I rape any one and even if i would bary them am so scared that I could hurt a child please somebody help me, I am the nicest person you could meet. One thing that makes me feel safer when I am home alone is sleeping with my cell phone and my home phone next to me. Should you have any healthcare-related questions, please call or see your physician or other healthcare provider promptly. No more tears, no more pain, no more sufferings! Im trying non stop to be busy. I can say that to this day, my OCD has gotten much better. Checking written items (forms, envelopes) to see if you accidentally wrote out your bad thoughts or to make sure that you havent written out a confession. I read this article because recently I have had very violent thoughts about murdering my family. However, to your second point, I believe there are other people with harm OCD that have symptoms that are not environmentally triggered. Quick Answer : Why do I have a fear of someone breaking in? That was last year, and I recovered. I seem to have these thoughts more so when I lay down to sleep and its like Im afraid that I am going to have them so I try to psych myself into not having them which just causes me to have them. You dont want to cause others harm, let alone yourself. I had thoughts here and there and sometimes panicked about my health too. In addition, I'm more or less incapable of sleeping alone. Trying to convince yourself that you would never act on your thoughts. Thank you for sharing. I cant be around any sharp objects. Ricardo, it sounds overwhelming and I suspect its time to get some professional help with this. Hi, I developed anxiety/depression about 4 months ago when I had uti/epiditimitis in my nuts. I mean, everyone jokes about a little OCD in the family but damn if I never thought about it until tonight. I try my best to ignore the thoughts and move on, but sub consciously, the fear catches up and the anxiety builds, resulting in a feeling that I am not cured after all and depressing thoughts ensue (thoughts like is my life going to be like this always and is it even worthy leading such a life and will I ever be able to live happily etc.,?). I dont even wanna be around my child because I fear and I literally feel like a monster when I do isolate myself. 2. help please. You are truly an amazing person. xD) I wish I knew less about the world around me its probably all the things I learn/know about that causes me to think about this stuff. I found out today my thereapy I just started isnt covered and I feel so overwhelmed! i try to surpress these thoughts and the sometimes they make me sick i mean physically sick. Two men put a ladder to my apartment window in the middle of the night. Idk why but I have always been extremely sensitive. I even think they wont stoo unless I act on it and that scares me, and frustrates me and has made me depressed. It all started right after I had my daughter. I mean what the fcuk? 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I realized that I somehow needed to release my obsessions in a safe environment and not suppress them. This means you can protect yourself "in the heat of the moment", which includes using an object as a weapon - you are also allowed to stop an intruder running off. Avoiding knives, scissors, or razor blades. Location: with the fairies. It was terrible I kept ruminating over it asking people if I was a bad person and everything that comes along with it!!! I am currently: i get really paranoid and really scared, about people breaking in, and people watching and being in the house when i get in. its very hard to control sometimes but Im scared to tell anyone about it and my mother does not care for my thoughts and I do not want to get in trouble with anyone or thing or be sent to a mental hospital either. You have to have a reasonable fear of death or great bodily harm before you can shoot them. Im so scared that one day Im just gonna snap and go into my baby sisters room and strangle her. and I didnt know what is happening to me . Its up to me to do the work and, over time, become my own therapist as Ive been told. Im recently off anti-depressant medication after 13 years, and am feeling successful although I have had some disturbing thoughts which is more concerning because my husband and I are trying to start our own family. The older I got the more then I could do featured over the could happen. I believe I have always had OCD, as when I look back on my childhood there were times when I wouldnt want people to touch to my belongings and move them, I had to constantly wash my hands because I didnt think they were clean enough, and mental images that were disturbing to the point where I would have to make a ritual to make the thoughts go away. Is there a name for the fear of someone breaking in and killing your My stomach is in knots. The growing epidemic of harm OCD is vastly brought on by this very sensory input into the minds of ordinary people. Phobia /fb/ Im now 28 and last night getting a lift over the road i sat in the back.It was a 5 minute drive and i strangled in my head my father with a cheese cutter and then stabbed my mum in the neck a few times and watched her bleed out. ERP can be challenging, but it DOES work. When I heard that I thought, How awful. Then I instantly felt that fear sweep over me. I experience a combination of Harm/Aggression and Sexual Obsessions, whereby my intrusive thoughts focus solely on sexual violence (cannibalism, rape, necrophilia, etc). Even if someone is here, I tend to wake up several times and am unable to sleep deeply anymore. Questions? I would have to take a bet that us OCD sufferers (esp intrusive/harm/self harm thoughts) are some of the most tender hearted and compassionate souls out there and I believe that is why this hurts us so deeply. Thanatophobia is an extreme fear of death or the dying process. I would agree that its the sense of responsibility that i have. Fear of hitting, striking, or beating someone to death. I fear of turning to a serial killer. Ive been struggling with this for a few months now. Is there a way to be fully free of those thoughts? Im glad to say its never been as bad as those black days but I would like to know if this current habit is OCD; Possibly some situation or someone's behavior is causing you to feel exposed and vulnerable. I feel like i am getting better BUT somtimes during the day (mostly evening) my head feels really full like i have a weird urge to do something, tense, anxious, i just cant put my finger on it. Thank you for sharing, Amy. I feel disgusted and hate towards myself for even having such thoughts. I really need help. I am going to school for Social Work and Psychology, and I wonder if Im too mentally unstable to go into the profession that is my dream. Avoidance of television shows or newspaper stories featuring violent themes. You are so much stronger than you think. I dont know whats wrong with me! I have read the book brain lock and it helps me even though i havent been diagnosed with OCD. Encountering an intruder is usually a reason to feel fear and lack . Neutralizing unwanted thoughts or images by mentally flipping them upside down, replaying them backwards, or converting them into something good.. They throw a fit and you picture hurting them. There are repressed memories, fears or emotions that you are not confronting. However, it sounds like trying to predict the future is another type of avoidance. Checking written items (forms, envelopes) to see if you accidentally wrote out your bad thoughts or to make sure that you havent written out a confession. You are not really afraid of someone breaking in, you are afraid of your father breaking in. I took a moment to think about it and then started my car and tried to chase him down to get his license plate number but he was driving fast and by the time i got to the complex's exitthe street went two ways and i lost him. I at times feel I dont deserve life. We are kind of newly weds so its been hard and frustrating. Dream about Someone Breaking In And Trying To Kill You is a premonition for your resourcefulness and ingenuity. I feel more at ease knowing it is OCD rather than it not being OCD. Life isnt simple, and many real-life situations are far more complex than the generalities used in some of the blog posts. hi. Meds? I was so anxious and scared until I finally bit the bullet and got online for answers. Your description sounds exactly like the stories I hear every day in my office. I suffer from anxiety but have controlled it for years now. That causes more anxiety. is really ocd when you fear you have harmed someone in the past.? I Always Dream That Someone Is Running After Me and Trying to Kill Me Thanks to you (and other people who speak up about this), information about OCD is more readily available today than it was even a few years ago. if it is difficult, say i love my family. ERP works well for aggressive thoughts, so you might want to start by finding an OCD specialist in your area to help guide you. Just like when I had the murder thoughts, I have a moments peace shattered by some reminder of my agonizing feelings for his current love-life by odd tenuous links and then I get this anxious feeling of dread and the deepest depression imaginable. Etc. I keep thinking, it would be so easy to grab a knife or when shes sleeping it would be easy And i dont want to hurt her i dont think. I definitely get these burning images in my head when I feel like I am suddenly put in control of someones life. Two men put a ladder to my apartment window in the middle of the night. Here are some avoidance behaviors that are common for individuals who are afraid of killing or harming other people. Avoidance of being alone with children, pets, the elderly, or other vulnerable populations. Why would I EVER have thought of harming my kids or my husband??? i also am afraid to play any of the violent video games i used to play as well as watch scary or actiony movies. I hate these anxiety feelings. my parents,my friendsbut, I have noticed throughout this period that I sometimes still have this fear.At the moment I live in Italy, and I intened to go back to Romania and I noticed that my fear tends to appear. ive made it a point to stay up all night and sleep during the day, so that if i were to sleep walk, they would at least be awake and about to defend themselves. I dont think I struggle with harm obsession. I wish I had this info 18 years ago when this compulsion was at its worse. 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